Does this need an explanation?

It's a little embarassing to admit, but I have wanted to make my own website like this for a long time. I've had multiple, multiple false starts, abandoned attempts, and good ideas that were never executed. I have probably written more trying to figure out why I want so badly to write--and not just to write, but to have what I have written where it can be read--that I could have done something pretty great if I had used that time constructively.

I often think like that, how I could have used my time. Opportunity cost is a constant mental companion of mine, and it can make you miserable. It often does. But it can also make you efficient, so I generally challenge myself on how I am spending my time. Despite this, despite my attempts to optimize my time and spend it most wisely, I have never yet put forth a sustained effort to write something worth reading. I have not done this, despite a strong, near constant desire to do so. Maybe this is a common affliction of readers, wishing they were a writer. Maybe it's universally true. Do all art lovers wish they could create something like the art they love? Do all sports fans wish they could be the one on the field? Do all play goers secretly wish they were among the actors?

I don't really love to think about what it says about me that, despite having a lifelong desire to be a writer, I have never taken the steps to actually attempt to do so.

But enough despairing, at least I am here now. I'm glad I have taken this step now, rather than in another 10 years.

I actually started writing this intending to explain how I have matured and no longer need to justify to anyone (including myself) why I am spending the time and money to make this website. It's good, worthwhile, and I want to do it, and that should be enough.